Jibber-Jabber

I am writing happily to let you all know that not a single bit of acne is left on my face from my terrible Klonopin withdrawals. The Neutrogena Rapid Clear products really did work well and I am only now using the Neutrogena cleansing bar (which is not a part of the Rapid Clear line) without any signs of a breakout or one coming soon. My other odd withdrawal symptoms are still here but the acne being gone is a sign of good thngs to come! I would post a picture, but my iPad battery is near 2% and my wi-fi keeps going out so I'd like to get this blog done as soon as I can!

I have been having some out-of-the-ordinary seizures. Here's two of the weirdest ones that I just had to share:

Neutrogena - Sweet, sweet relief! + Review

It's been another week and a half. Some improvement, but it's off and on due to the withdrawals. I can tell you that I am having the best results with products that I have had in years which is a major breakthrough for me - and right in time! The photo below was taken two mornings ago. I had one random break out yesterday, but the new products I am using have really cleared a lot of that up. I guess I wont be getting rid of all my acne any time soon, but if I can keep it controlled enough to the point where it looks invisible under a thin layer of makeup - I'm happy as can be!

If you're curious about what miracle products I am using (out of the hundreds I have tried in my life) that are finally working, don't worry. I wasn't going to keep that a secret from all of you! All the products are products of Neutrogena, and I am in no way being paid to write any of this. It is simply my opinion being shared out of pure joy that this stuff actually works!

Awful Acne - Withdrawals

So I am currently suffering withdrawals from my previous medication called Klonopin that I used to take to supplement my Trileptal and Felbatol... I am breaking out up and down. From my forehead to my chin to my neck to my chest and even on my BUTT. It's absolutely terrible. And it isn't just any old acne... It's 3D, red, infected, and basically just disgusting acne. Take a look! Can't believe it is going to take 3 weeks to a month to clear up! (scroll down for pic)

Sorry if I made anyone puke... Just needed to vent. There's a lot going on since my last hospital visit and my world is just falling apart. I can't sleep anymore. My seizures are nonstop all day. I am failing classes because staring at my computer has become too much on my brain. I couldn't even type this post myself, much less update my Facebook fan pages. I missed an important art show that I was looking forward to... Blegh. I hate to complain or speak negatively but I think I just deserve it at this point. We all do sometimes.

I feel like I am just failing my mother as far as college goes. Professors are strict and do not understand my condition. Neither does the school and I hate to say it but I do not expect them to understand. I cannot make someone understand this. It's another one of those instances where I give up and I'm half okay with it.

What I'm not okay with is failing the ones I love. Wasting money on college. Failing to blog on time for my fans who mean so much to me. Missing art shows that are the world to me. Having to sleep all day because I can't sleep at night, thus not being able to have conversation with my friends and boyfriend. It just feels like everything is falling apart. The intense acne is just the icing - or should I say "sprinkles" - on the cake...